so confused by some events of this weekend (and sorry i didn't call back friend, i was very upset and would not have been pleasant to be around) and so sad for some of my friends. we all lack the courage to stand up for ourselves... or rather we did lack that courage. i don't know if my made statement will cause any change in my situation, but i ( Read more... )

i just read every entry i have written in my xanga in the past year and a half. i cried several times while doing so. i think the last two years were a lot harder on me than i realized. i have a funny habit of blocking out bad memories, which can be both a blessing and a curse ( Read more... )

if my parents' houses are no longer home
and the house i'll live in this year won't ever feel like home
then where is it?

i've been noticing something about myself lately ( Read more... )

i watched the atlantic ocean pass with amazement ( Read more... )

i have a room half full of stuff.
i townhouse packed to the brim with memories.
junior year is almost gone.
rome seems so very far away.

i'm really sick and have done basically nothing but lay around for the past five days, so i've had a lot of time to think. i can't wait to go to rome and actually be somewhere with a history! we do not have a history. we have less than 250 years. we're hardly even a blip on the radar of human history and it disgusts me that we think so highly of ( Read more... )

i started reading it last night and have already made it past page 50. stephen king has always impressed me with his ability to craft a great horror novel, and it has not disappointed me yet. i find it interesting how into horror novels i get when i can't even stand to physically watch a horror movie. i guess i'm a person who is frightened visually ( Read more... )

i am trying really hard not to panic right now.

You Are Teal Green
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