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how many hours can you spend in a car?
My VW has a little trip computer that resets when you start a new trip. (It lets you park for a while before it resets.) And it tells me that I drove 3 hours and 45 minutes today. Some of that was my choice, but a lot of it was taxi service for middle son and youngest daughter ( Read more... ) -
sometimes it's really nice to be computer whiz
There was excitement near rosie_brandy's house yesterday - a swat team came in and took down a crack house ( Read more... ) -
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I'm sure from here on in until I move out, I'm going to be sounding terrible redundant. I guess that's just where I am am now. There are some bright patches - thank you, B, and my friends - but beyond those, it's like trudging through a snow storm.
Three weeks until school let out. Hopefully 4 weeks or less until I can move out.
But that's in the ( Read more... ) -
Things are better by morning
I'm in a better mood this morning. I woke up earlier than I need to - 6:15 - because there was a large white ragdoll cat trying to lick and bite my chin, all while purring like a motorboat ( Read more... ) -
one last thing so I don't end on such a downer
Despite all the pain and whining I just did, I am fundamentally ok. It's not possible to end one life and start another one without pain. And despite my complaints, the pain is not too much right now. I can deal with it. And it is worth it.
And perhaps the most important factor is though in the end I'm the one who has to do what I can and live ( Read more... ) -
difficult day
If I were a woman, I'd suspect that I was about to start my period. I have no similar hormonal cycles to blame.
I was in a funk almost all day, first from taking to K, and then from stepping into it with B. I talked to K, and then left for work, and spent another hour talking to B, trying my best to get her to open up about what had bugged her ( Read more... ) -
feeling the fool
The last 24 hours has had a lot going on emotionally.
I'm feeling down at the moment; probably mostly chemical.
One of the things I used to do a lot before I went on anti-depressents is give in to idiot calling. You know; the self talk where you go "How could I be so stupid as to . I'm such an idiot!"
I'm not quite that far yet. But I am feeling ( Read more... ) -
Morning meeting, pt 2: what K wants
The second part of the discussion was harder.
In our last therapy session, K had said my actions were dehumanizing her.
This morning I set out to find out what I can do to make that better.
Four things, she said.
- Stop hanging out in the library with the computer all the time.
- Stop hanging out IMing with my “gal pals” all ( Read more... )
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Discussion pt 1: what to take.
I did talk to K this morning.
We got rid of the matter of what I was going to take pretty quickly. Her "strong view" on that matter was that she wanted me to take old stuff from the house before I took new stuff. So, for example, I’ll take the old sheets and let her buy new ones. And no buying that big screen HDTV; it’s the 10 year old 27” Sony ( Read more... ) -
what stays, what goes
When K gets up, we're supposed to have a discussion about what I'm taking with me ( Read more... )