all is well.

it seems like my worrysome false assumptions always get me into trouble. but coming from my last relationship, trust is such a scary word to me. i'm trying and i hope you can beleive that ( Read more... )

today went by really fast. i didn't do much of anything in art. i painted clinton a picture of a tree in night with watercolors, and then later i drew him a picture of a dancing grape. that pretty much sums up that... i slept in french 2. that class really rather sucks this semister. everyone is so quiet and dull. it's just boring ( Read more... )

maybe just being silent is a better approach. failed attempts at trying to help...it's just too hard. when someone is upset they mistakenly take everything out on everyone else. and that seriously sucks ( Read more... )

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i haven't updated my journal in a long time. my words never come out like i want them to. i always end up sounding dumb or whinney or something. i feel like i never get any sort of point accross. i wish i were better with words. i never was very good at getting my feelings out in word form and that really bothers me ( Read more... )

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i am so happy... me and clinton walked through the woods after school. it was so beautiful. everything was the perfect color. i wish i could describe it properly. it was incredible. we sat down under a tree and he held me, and i stared into his eyes and i felt so infinite ( Read more... )

i feel sick. i wanna go home really bad. i just got a letter, and i'm really confused. i thought everything was okay, but maybe i was wrong? god. my stomach is twirling. and it's really hard not to cry. i hate this. i wanna go get him and hold him and run away. i don't understand what's going on. everything feels great to me. don't wanna ( Read more... )