i was talking to my friend Evan online, who i've known since 6th grade, and we were talking about the website www.suicidegirls.com ( a type of pin-up/classy porn site featuring goth/punk/emo chicks. it's not porn, more of the pin-up part) and then this was said ( Read more... )

so, you know what kicks ass? cuz i do.. it's called me turning 18 in exactly 3 weeks!! yes, that's what kicks ass. my party is on the 25, at the campbell gaslighter. i'm so stoked for that. and then on my actual birthday i'm goin out to breakfast with my friends then getting my first tattoo or two. i'm for sure getting "copyright" 1986 on the ( Read more... )

kyle is really hurting me, a lot. he just makes me feel like i don't exist anymore, like i'm not worth any time. he and i were supposed to be spending today together. i found out from ashley that the guys are staying in bakersfield because they had a show in fullerton last night and they have a meeting on tuesday, so instead of driving here and ( Read more... )

anyone got a cheap house or car? haha

o my goooooddddddd..... so i've been waiting for kyle to email me to let me know whether or not he can go to senior ball, and today is the last day to get tickets. so i check my email and it says there's an email from "poorkidmfs@yahoo.com" (kyle's email) and so i go to it and it says "mail delivery failure". meaning he emailed... but the email ( Read more... )

-i'm always tired
-i'm stressed about graduating
-i'm stressed about my friends not getting along right now
-i need a job
-i need to move out of the house
-i need money for BFD
-i need money for Warped
-i feel FAT-i miss kyle like a mother fucker ( Read more... )

Do you remember back when I was daddy’s little girl ( Read more... )

angelina.. i love you! you are such a wonderful person, seriously. i wish we saw each other more. we need to make more time! becuz you're soooooo great to be with. you are one of the only people who has actually taken the time to listen to things i feel i need to talk about, whether they're good or bad, and you've always cared. and i love you soooo ( Read more... )

HOLY SHIT.. MY FORMER SELF IS PLAYING AT BFD