My aunt on Brian, a bit of reality

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Still single, been on so many dates and nothing! I'm tired of this BS.

Anyway, Will messaged "Marisa" on POF. Will is Brian's friend. I found out some interesting info.


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Wow, I started this journal when I was what, 19,20, 21? I can't recall exactly. Today I am 33! I'm just shocked where this broken road I've traveled down has led me ( Read more... )

I still find myself crying over the loss of what I have considered my greatest love. I've wondered what I could've done, how I could get him back and if he will truly be the guy I fell in love with ever again. Nothing in this world can help me get back there, can't fix what has been broken no matter how I beg and plead ( Read more... )

A year later and no one has replaced him. I look at him and Tara and wonder why her? She has a big forehead and is a secretary at an oil company...what does she have to offer? For now she might be sucking his dick everyday but that'll stop, it always does ( Read more... )

My status for 5/21/15 ( Read more... )

On Tuesday, Chris emailed me tickets to see the Nash Bash at the Barclay's center. Man I wish I could appreciate it, that's all I ever wanted Brian to do, surprise me and be thoughtful. I couldn't believe he spent money on me, we haven't spoke in a week. Following the tickets he emailed me, "I hope you find it in your heart to join me. I will be in ( Read more... )

I haven't heard from Chris and I'm thankful, the drama was overwhelming. It's a shame we couldn't work out. I'm so attracted to him and he's got a great job but mentally, he's unstable. I know he biding his time until we can contact me again. I don't want it, as much as I miss cuddling and kissing him, the fun we had but that was all ( Read more... )

Today felt like I lost Brian all over again except I broke up with Chris. I just couldn't be with him anymore, he couldn't love me how I wanted to be loved. He was controlling and demanding, I didn't deserve that. At the same time we had so much fun together, he was up for any adventure as long as it was just the two of us, anymore than that and he ( Read more... )

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