So my friend moved out today on her birthday and it was very hard for her. She moved in w/her mom and didn't want to. I miss her. I know that I will see her but it just wont be the same. It is very hard to see her hurting like she is. I know that she will heal, but it is going to be a while. I wish that I could make it better for her ( Read more... )

Well, last week I found out that a friend had died. He was a great guy, big part of the LGBT community. We had a memorial service for him which really good. It is just sad to think that someone who was my age died. People my age aren't supposed to die. Then I found out that a friend of mines dad died last Tues. so I have two people who have died in ( Read more... )

I went to territory days today with my friends and ran into my ex. My daughters' father. He looked like he was strung out or something. I asked if he wanted to see pictures of his daughter and it look at about 5 of them out of 20 or so that I have on my phone. He was very non responsive about anythng that had to do with our daughter. I asked if he ( Read more... )

Well found out on Monday night that in 2 weeks or less my aunt is goin to die. She has been sick with COPD for a number of years and for the last 6 months or so has been in and out of the hosptial. She was returned to the hosptial on Thurday very ill. She was put on a vent to help her breath and is on lots of medication. She is on antibiotics for ( Read more... )

Well I am excited because I get to meet a girl that I have been talking to for a month or so on Thursday. Im very nervous about it too. This is our first meeting. We have never talked on the phone but we have talked on line and texted each other. I figure that if there is no connection romantically then maybe we can just be friends. I am also ( Read more... )

why do i fall for the ones i can not have. why do i fall for the one that mean so much to me ( Read more... )

I hate it when you like someone and they dont like you back. Then they tell you something that makes your heart jump, but it was only to make you feel better about something else. Now there feels like there is a giant canyon between you. I wish that I could get over this, but it is hard. I don't know how, I guess as time goes on it will get easier ( Read more... )

So, I got a very good lesson the other day. Don't waste time on what you want. If you want something you have to go for it before someone else gets it ( Read more... )

Well i haven't journaled in a while so here it goes ( Read more... )

Well I moved, it is great haveing my own place. Cheryl has her own room. I am still working at Checks Unlimited. Things are very up in the air as to when I will get my regular shift back. Don't know what is going on with that. Oh well. Not a whole lot going on really. Just working and taking care of my daughter.