rephrase  on the last entry....

the weddings still on
love's still there
...plans have just changed

bottom line: i have the most amazing friends ever! thank yall for one of the best nights of my life! :-) good clean fun :-)

Whats your worest nightmare? 5 days before the wedding he’s saying, they’re saying, that it’s canceled. All plans changed.

…so nothings going to be real.

Karma karma karma

Bottom line: I wonder if my happiness makes you happy or makes you jealous, makes you angry I wonder if my sorrow makes you feel safe or does it feel justified?

Live in the present, live to die tomorrow.

I’ve done my mistakes. I’ve planned out my goals.
But you’re right. I cant live in regret. I cant undo my did`s
I cant see ahead. I cannot plan ahead.

I can make today right. I can choose today to do the right things. I can start with today.

Bottom line: did yesterday’s rays of ( Read more... )

So who has the most bestestestestest friend ever?
If there was a contest…lets just say there would be no contest.

So, after a crappy Saturday, disgusting Sunday, and a zombie Monday, my Tuesday was wonderful. I was seeing butterflies! Anddd eating yummmie chocolate, laughing at my wonderful card, being soothed by my beautiful rose, and jumping ( Read more... )

i'm sorry to those who read my last entry.it was the way i felt at that moment and doesnt reflect my view on life all together. sorry.

I’m trying so hard to give you what you want. I can feel myself slipping away. I had such pride for myself once. Now all I do is wonder what happened to that girl. What made me lose that sense of right and wrong. When did I lose the knowledge of knowing when to fight for some things and (never) letting others go. I’m struggling to keep up. I feel ( Read more... )

i feel so unhuman ( Read more... )

It seems kind of unfair that the balances are tipped. What is epitomatic for you is not for me. Nature is this way; its nature that has molded us into this. Think back to basics. We’re all only as good as our base. Our basic needs: water, food, protection, love, desire, and satisfaction. Although our needs are the same, they are not similar. Its ( Read more... )

Why is that im not allowed to be angry? Is it really that bad of an emotion? You wont let me cry instead of being strong for me, you become weak with me… I cant be happy all the time, cause hun, that’s not who I am. Im sorry you fell in love with that girl. I’m not that “mustang freshman” anymore. I’ve come to terms with it, so should you.

And ( Read more... )

I just realized what month it is. I don’t think ive ever felt so little. I’ve always said to myself…told myself over and over that I’m stronger than I look. But maybe i said it just to distract me. Said it enough times that I believed my own delusion? I don’t know whether its true or not, but I do know that I feel like it should have affected me ( Read more... )