two days left. "IT'S THE FINAL COUNTDOWN!" - Europe

and i get to take a test from the facility tomorrow.  "hey inigo, i hope we win." - the princess bride.

rogue one arrived early, so i get to watch that tonite at least before i might die. ;-)

kind of liberating to answer texts and shit like, "i'm gonna be dead next week anyway, so whatever."  i might not, but i might, so what?  lol

was able to make an arrangement with the detox clinic without insurance.  high admittance fee, but low monthly to cover the rest.  will need to drain part of my investment account, but worth it ( Read more... )

great so i am dead.  they don't accept my insurance.

i even upgraded it for this year.

thank you, universe, you piece of shit, for making us come into existence without our consent, and then constantly raping our lives.

looks like i found a detox facility i can afford.  the ER last time cost something around $20,000, and i still owe $5000 after insurance, which i am not paying, despite the collectors after it.  reason being severalfold ( Read more... )

been so sick all day and only now feeling like i might not die today. we'll see if this holds tomorrow...watching #defendingyourlife tonite, because that is essentially all i have been doing today.

update: and it would figure that on a day i cannot cook for myself, that the delivery company would suffer so specific a glitch that they gave the wrong ( Read more... )

5th straight day without suicidal thoughts.  and i am commissioned/volunteered to do a painting for a st. jude's hospital contest in april.

here's some of my shit : http://naanaanabooboo.deviantart.com/

to whomever reads this.  no one...

i'm suicidal but also non-committal.  oi

when i think i won't make it, i see my little sweetie purring on my lap and i say to myself: one more day at least.

watching conan the barbarian and knowing (again) i will never know love like valeria loves him