Travis has an interview tomorrow. Perhaps an end to the constant depression he faces is at hand. Most of it is a direct result of feeling less of a man for not being able to provide. Most of his problems with our attraction to other men is that they can afford to do things with us that he cannot. I am hoping this helps a lot of things ( Read more... )

but something is scuttling about inside of me, waiting to come out and be said. I am just uncertain what that something is. Life is hard, but soooo rewarding right now. I think, like andrew, being happy unsettles me. I genuinely am not certain I deserve it. Not in the emo sort of way, but in reality. I don't know if I've earned it.

But there's a break in the storm, a rest between thunderclaps, finally, and I am more excited than I know what to do with ( Read more... )

So, I just had a full-blown mental melt-down in the shower. I just sat on the floor of the little square, about half-way through washing my hair, and sobbed, and sobbed and cried and punched the wall, until I hurt. Nothing could make it better. Nothing could make it stop. I still don't know why it happened ( Read more... )

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So, I should have known it would be a bad night when lissa couldn't be not in the same room with me for more than about fort-five seconds, without getting up and following me like a wounded puppy dog. That started at 3. She flips out at 4. I put her to bed at 4:20, because she's retardedly tired but refusing to go to sleep. She passes out instantly ( Read more... )

A great feeling of uncertainty has completely settled over me. I find myself questioning my every thought and choice. It makes it hard to just 'be' when I don't believe in my own ability to 'be' anything, at the moment. I am not certain if that made sense ( Read more... )

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANDREW!!!!!!

hrmm...
I hope i am up to running adequately today. Who knows? Either way, AMORPHOUS HAND BLOB OF KENOSHA!!!

I think i'll throw it at my players. maybe it'll throw them off. Funny. I need it

Nick and Tori broke up. Going to try pretty hard to get someone to go get nick. I'd do the same for Tori, but she's not gaming anymore.

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It's rather peaceful stuff... Just thought I'd comment.