got checked out during 3rd period today for a trip to the psychiatrist...that went well, i guess. apparently i have borderline personality disorder, as well, which would explain my horrendous inability to understand or explain myself to other people. so i'm getting a new medication for my anxiety attacks (ie: last night's journal fiasco...i'm so ( Read more... )

new journal: http://www.livejournal.com/~beatenbygravity . i figured it was time.

someone come over and harass me; i'm bored. door's unlocked. 850-368-5574 (call if you want to talk/come over/whatever)

list of shit i need:

1) closure
2) a fresh start
3) sleep

[not necessarily in that order].

i just want to stop.

thinking, talking, feeling. i was numb before tonight, and in retrospect, i should have stayed that way ( Read more... )

yay, i made an emotastic background for this stupid thing ( Read more... )

things are definitely looking up lately. i'm slightly more comfortable around jaron; for instance, i don't feel a constant need to cling all over him like a fucking monkey. so, that's generally a plus. i still feel that, if he were to ask me out again, i would say yes without hardly hesitating, but that's sure to wind down soon enough, if things ( Read more... )

i love that i've been able to garner my thoughts into coherent journal entries lately. the thoughts, themselves, aren't exactly good things, but the fact that i seem to now have the ability to write everything down in a somewhat literate fashion makes me pretty damn happy. i really wish i could write poetry, instead of just...whatever the hell it ( Read more... )

sweet jesus, that looks a lot longer within the formatting of my journal's html...
i apologize for the almost-novels i've been writing lately, heh.

[i don't think there's any other point to this post, other than self-realization, so you'll just have to ignore it if you don't know what's going on, or if you don't care ( Read more... )