"I will never leave my bedroom. I will never cry at night again. Wrap my arms around him and pretend. Coin operated boy ( Read more... )

I'm about ready to scurry off to the other job, but I think I should update about my weekend. It started off okay as I remember. I got home a little bit early, after my dad and I went to the Insurance Office to put me on the plan and then to the mechanic's to make an appointment for the Volvo (which I think I should nickname Mulva (Volvo always ( Read more... )

"Seem to know just right where they belong... No one's heard a single word I've said." Hmmm, I feel better now. Not so much that I feel better illness wise, I think that I don't feel any better in my sinuses than I think I do. But. We have purchased a car. Yes, I know, I too am excited. Its a Volvo 940 1994. Its really awesome as it has a moon roof ( Read more... )

What is with me and killing my Ipod? I think me and Mortimer have a love hate relationship sometimes. I wish he would just play my music and update like I like him too, but oftentimes he would rather not. I am bored bored bored. My life is mundane. Why oh god? And the situation worsens as I cannot find a tissue. Bleh ( Read more... )

Well now that school is over, I work a lot. Working is rewarding, yet I don't ever feel like I'm doing anything. Whatever. Work work work. That's the name of my game, and my games are generally pretty damn boring. Whatever. That's the second time I've said whatever, and I don't give a shit. I feel bitter and angry and not at all looking forward to ( Read more... )

God Trent Reznor, do I ever love you. You make my heart beat hard against my chest, you make me grind my hips against the air, and you make me want your music to be tangible. "I want to fuck you like an animal," ah only too true. Your music is more than sex to me, its something I haven't yet been able to come to terms with so when I hear "Something ( Read more... )

Mmm mm mmm. I love good music. What I love even more than good music is new music, it makes me feel like Indiana Jones finally finding the Holy Grail and being able to reach up and drink from the cup of the carpenter. Okay, maybe that's a little dramatic, or slightly quirky, but really quirky music will do that to you ( Read more... )

Hahaha. Oh my, my life is hilarious. What goes down on a daily basis often times makes me look back and shrug. Who would have thought. I am happy because its spring, and baseball season, and the end of the school year. Remarkably, I am doing well in classes and that makes me feel better about myself. Doing well in school always puts a smile on my ( Read more... )

Since Michael says I'm pretentious on livejournal, I will try not to be. I just write like I do because I see no other way at looking at my convoluted thoughts (and I hope I spelled that correctly). So basically I'll update like I should or just go through the laundry list that is my day ( Read more... )

I am so sad. I am so sick of being so sad. I am sick of the what abouts and the how tos. I am sick of myself. I am sick sick sick of being sick. I am so sad. I am sad about my life. I am sad about being sad. I am sad about crying so much that I feel like I can't cry anymore ( Read more... )