I think I'm going to try to write in here every day until I notice a change in my anger, and then I want to decrease my posts. I already feel slightly calmer after getting it out last night, and I even had a four hour nap during the day after having a restless sleep at night. It's worrying me though that even if I do get some anger out in here, ( Read more... )

I'm not quite sure why I'm trying to get my feelings out this way, it's been so long since I wrote on here that I'm not even sure if I can get the words out right. I've not been able to write on here since all that stuff happened two years back, and I think I got too afraid to open up properly to an indirect audience. It always seemed easier to ( Read more... )

Everyone thinks I'm so damaged from what you did, and yeah - I am... but no where near as what he did to me.

I wonder whether I'll ever get over it.

I want to put myself in hospital just so my mum would care.

I don't think she would. I think she'd hate me more.

I don't know how you mustered up the courage to do something so hurtful, ignorant and despicable as that. You could have let me know, made sure I didn't want to join in. Do you know how much it's hurt me? I feel so invisible. Why don't you want to know me anymore ( Read more... )

I feel fat and disgusting ( Read more... )

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