i have this tendency to leave journals unfinished because i make them when i'm feeling whiny and moody, but then when the feeling passes, so does the urge to continue updating them. so, to do something i never have before, i'm going to leave this one on a good note. fuck this mellodramatic bullshit ( Read more... )

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i had an epic dream last night that jon and i flew to japan on a school trip. the airport was a huge concrete building and was completely empty except for a creepy woman who kept walking by. when we got there i was drunk and we were staying in some kind of office building and andrew deleon was laughing at us because we were drunk. i tired checking ( Read more... )

good news this morning:

i'm definately going to UC santa cruz and living on campus.

i plan to:
-go vegitarian/try going vegan
-walk alot
-go to the gym
-take lots of pictures
-stop watching tv (except for maybe the daily show)
-read volumes of books

being so far away, i'll probobly never see any of you again. better start planning my goodbye

wtf this week sucked.

i cleaned out the car today. i removed about two shopping bags full of garbage from the floor. people treat my car roughly. i was picking up bags from the liquor store from the trunk and something just sunk inside me. i kept thinking of the line i'm trying, well, i'm trying to drink away that part of the day i just can't sleep away.i can't say i'm ( Read more... )

going back, it occurred to me how much school takes a shit all over my day. i thought i was going to throw up in first period. my mouth tasted like acid. i blame waking up so damn early. i just had to sit there and take deep breaths and try to think it away ( Read more... )

man i am pretty fucking tipsy. i shaved for the first fucking time in like a month and i don't know why. i guess i just got tired of having this half-ass beard thing going. my dad's dad told him that he would never be able to grow a beard due to all the cherokee blood. i guess indians don't have very much body hair and i have to agree. all i can ( Read more... )

i've been really busy lately. ok, not really, but i've been painting like mad and moving furniture and tackling dropcloths and such. today was really weird and it could have turned out to be horrible and even deadly.

-bought closer-ate la vic burritos and a 40 ( Read more... )

you know i really like going to the mall, just because whenever you go in the über cool stores like banana republic or abercrombie &fitch they have the fucking wildest, slickest dance music you have ever heard. the bass line gets you high, it's so good. and then, sometimes, you figure out that the song you're listening to is really a remix of a ( Read more... )