I am experiencing a rebirth in my life.

Just like all my diary pages in the past, this journal is now subject to explode into ash
And from this, something much more beautiful will hopefully emerge.

I'm giving this a new try.  I'm deleting everyone who doesn't want to be here for the ride.

 I want to write a memoir not for anyone to know my story, but because I need to know my story.  I look back at my past, at my childhood, and there are chunks missing.  The pieces I'm left with don't fit together properly.  Lies I was told as cover stories unravel but I don't have the truth to replace them.  I'm left with this void where truth and ( Read more... )

I never dream about people I love.  They are banned from my subconscious puppetry.  But in my dreams, I fall in love.  Strangers, fiction, past.  Never the comfortable.  Shells filled with ghosts of myself hiding within my mind.  Sometimes in my dreams I feel guilt, most of the time I don't.   Most of the time they fill the same void, a man or boy ( Read more... )

 The Knife Heartbeats (Live)
Sam Sparro Black and Gold
Alicia Keys Unthinkable
Little Dragon Blinking Pigs
Little Dragon Looking Glass
Fever Ray When I Grow Up

 I should really use this thing more often ( Read more... )

I've been meaning to update this thing for a while.  But now it seems I need the relief of a journal.

My teacher, friend, mentor, Cherry Nixon, passed away last Friday very suddenly.  She had been struggling with an enormous amount of things in her life including an impending loss of her job and many surgeries.  She is the reason I became so ( Read more... )

1., I am taking six classes this semester, a total of 16 credit hours, one being a graduate level course ( Read more... )

I have to write a story.  It has to be 3rd person limited omniscient.

I am shit out of ideas.  I only write in the 1st.

I only write in the 1st.

I want to write stories.  I want to be an author.

Why do I feel like this will never happen?  Why do I feel like LIFE will never let this happen?

Alright, I don't know if a lot of people knows this, but a few months ago I was having really bad car trouble so I had a temporary car.  My apartment complex TOWED that car and made me pay to get it out.  Quite a fiasco.  Because the office was closed, I couldn't get a temporary pass that day.  They told me to call the emergency maintenance line ( Read more... )