Well so much for SUNday since it's raining but I think it fits my mood so I'm down with the rain this time. Morose and frustrated and full and needing a release. Vent. All I can think of is my hands and the terrible appearance and how hard it is to work when all day long people ask "ew what happenend to your hands?" and I just say I burned myself. ( Read more... )

Today I give up. Today I let go. Today I quit. It's not worth it. Disappointment. Constant ( Read more... )

Fell asleep with hopes. Woke up with self defeating thoughts. Woke up frustrated. Mostly woke up disappointed. And certain I was closing the door. Yes no more of that, I said. Today is a new day and I'm tired of being ignored. Then my phone rings. And this time it's not a creditor. As the "returning of my call" drew to a close, I was in the process ( Read more... )

I've arrived back in Santa Cruz after a semi-impromptu vacation to San Diego. IT WAS SUCH A GOOD TRIP. The drive down was awesome, complete with beautiful green hills, blue lakes perfectly matching the bright blue of the sky, squirrels chasing each other, cows grazing, sheep also grazing, gorgeous sunsets filled with colors, and a cop changing his ( Read more... )

Sigh. Just returned from the Tuesday night at Saturn's. Currently watching American Beauty (one of my absolute favorites)and struggling to type with my terribly blistered hands. My pinky now has a brain. Well it's buddy mr. ring finger has the brain, but now they have each other is the point. Confused? Yeah that's how I felt after the doctor went ( Read more... )

Well the beautiful walk on the beach turned into a big mess. As I was walking (on my lunch break today) this large dog starts running at me as the water came up so I step up to the next rock only to put my fut directly onto a bunch of nasty wet algae and have my feet fly up into the air. Think cartoon character slipping on banana peel. Lucky me I ( Read more... )

I attempted to watch the rest of the movie I rented after work today and fell asleep again. So I ended up taking a nap for a couple hours...which was probably something I needed but of course it leaves me WIDE AWAKE at 2:30 in the morning when I have work tomorrow. I should consider getting myself on a normal sleeping schedule but....meh. This is ( Read more... )

So tomorrow is thanksfortaking and it's a really significant day to me for a few reasons. Firstly, as someone who comes from indigenous blood I feel the disgust for a country which parades such a wrong. It's as if we had a day to celebrate the slave trade. YAY OPRESSION!! But I will give a sincere yay for the good food. Thanksfortaking also applies ( Read more... )

But I haven't blogged in a minute and more importantly I've wanted to express myself all fucking weekend with no prevail. Although, the highlight of the whole thing would be the conversation with Ernesto I had all spur of the moment like during just about the entire second act of Ana and Eshu. He was leaving because the play was too intense for him ( Read more... )

Way to make me miss you terribly Andrew! I can't believe you're moving so soon!! I'm excited for you, for sure. And I hope that if I were to ever make it up to Oregon that I'd get the pleasure of your company. I do love you so, and want to wish you the best with this new life & location you're seeking. xoxoxo- you're the shit man ( Read more... )