I have realized I don't have much to say. Or rather I have so much to fucking say I hesitate to break the dam. Lose control. Constantly hesitant to lose control. I can't mentally grasp how far away she is right now. Her soul still feels close, but still too far. And my love with him is so long ago. Barely a memory, this soul feels so very far away ( Read more... )

Only 15 minutes left of work today. 40 hours is a bit much. You spend so much time in this one place. With this handful of people that you can only hope you get along with. I get along with two girls here. The other girls all get along with each other and here I am faced with the Clique VS the Cleek situation. Hella frustrating 'cause I hate work ( Read more... )

Saturation in loss ( Read more... )

I guess the sickness is getting better. And I guess I now know it's from Missy, which can actually be blamed on Nikki since she made me do it ;) My throat doesn't hurt as bad...but now my stomach is in a knot and I don't know if I should eat or not ( Read more... )

Except everything. everything. everything. everything. all the good. and the bad ( Read more... )

My food (mac and cheese) is orange. my shirt is orange. my blankets that i wish to lay in are orange. But no, if I lay down I'll fall asleep. And I still haven't seen her yet. "never too much-never too much". I'd rather go for a walk than go to dakota ( Read more... )

This is me at my emptiest. A lonely state of mind trying to stay focused on everything else but you. And missing you. I'm only kinda close to one person in this whole damn city. So I'm left vulnerable to her, and so scared to lose a friend who cares and who I care for. I can't stand being alone 'cause that's when the emptiness resonates most. My ( Read more... )

I've been reminded of the livejournal world, which I never really got too acquainted with to begin with, but it's still intriguing none-the-less. The new school year has begun, and all I can say is: being assistant producer for Rainbow is going to be intense. But everything intense is just as rewarding, so I have plenty to look forward to. I'm ( Read more... )

Ok...so...lots of things to catch up on. For starters....this past week has been NUTS. There was the whole ordeal with the girl I started dating a couple weeks ago...which has since turned to shit. We had different needs...and have decided to be friends 'cause it was all too much. I still don't know what I'm doing in college...I really hate school ( Read more... )

Naiive. You are this thing that crawls in and somehow I find myself wanting you between...yeah. You see me as this so-called "radical" with this gift for being musical and this larger than life smile when you get me drunk. And who'd have thunk I'd see something in such a pretty boy with so many toys and riches and good times? Unable to find the ( Read more... )