Oh man---this job is horrendous. I want to go back to my bed and sleep for a few more years. Hmm some things going on with me: Les and I are about ready to have Prom at our apartment...and it should be a lot of fun...though my going stag could prove to be disasterous for my emotional health. How stupid is that? Why the fuck should I need the ( Read more... )

So here's some of my "wisdom ( Read more... )

Well gosh darn it. Wish my life was prettier. I'm high as fuck by the by. This should be great to read tomorrow. Ok . So this guy, this guy who I fucking broke my anti boy/crush phase just so I could like. This guy. THIS GUY is so cute. So sweet. So funny. So needy. I like it so much. Bah....yeah this guy is confusing as fuck too. Maybe I like that ( Read more... )

Yeah...go figure him and every other guy in Santa Cruz doens't want a relatonship but would rather just aim for stickin his penis in as many girls as possible. And of course "they've never been like this before" or so they all say. Must be a weird Santa Cruz warp. And then there are the two guys who I'm so torn over. Very nice, safe guys. ( Read more... )

I like him. Honestly, purely. I like everything that I see and I'm not being blinded by my desire for companionship. I'm wanting his friendship ultimately. I'm wanting to hold his hand. Kiss him sweetly. I like him. He makes me feel fun inside. I laugh not because I'm obligated, not to simply humor him. I'm happy when he's present, I'm happy at the ( Read more... )

We don't talk no more. Hearts left mangled on the floor. But I ain't mad. It's just a fad. Got me feeling like I need you, when you can't be true. But tables always turn. Remember that touch? How we loved so much? Now this tension just builds and builds and builds. Only creating desconstruction, in comes the obstruction of our dreams and those ( Read more... )

So I've been in a good mood lately, despite all the shit going on. However I'm dealing with a lot of confusion. The things I'm most confused about (which I'm pretty much always confused about): my parents, and guys. Thanksfortaking brought about some family drama that hadn't been dealt with. My dad apologized for traumatizing and deeply hurting me ( Read more... )

So it's been a while since I've written anything on here. Don't know quite why, since I'm starting to love the idea of posting blogs and having few people reading them. Oh, and I deleted my previous blogs because they weren't very valuable and I'm...well I'm just like that. I erase evidence from the past every now and then unless I find it useful ( Read more... )