so i had this dream last nite. it was after i read like 50 pages in the godfather. i was the godfather, or at least the head of a multi-million dollar criminal empire. my closets friends made up my organization. someone was jealous of what we had built and a war insued. my friends endured daily assaination attempts i tryed my hardest to use my ( Read more... )

theres a lot of sh|t that comes with being a person, and i'm a good example with that, but i think i have found the worst part of me... i can say what i want to a crowd, i can be who an audience wants me to be (though not very well) but i can't tell the person i want to know most what i'm thinking. why was i given so much to say and only riddles to ( Read more... )

The past six days is what some would probly label as bittersweet. Mostl it was my own doing. I confornted several people who didn't have the balls to come to me about thier petty little qualms. Both of them didn't put up much of a fight or argument, easily quieted in shame and fear only continuing with smiles and inaudible mummbles. Does that make ( Read more... )

i'm so close to my three day thanksgiving break that i can taste it. today i going home and i'm sleeping as long as i can on the couch. then, when i wake up, i going back to my room where i'll barracade myself for a minnimum of 12 hours and do nothing but listen to music and play Halo 2, coming out only to refill my glass of my choice beverage ( Read more... )

i stayed up until a little before midnight last nite worker on a Govenor's School application. This was after working the lights at a play i was pretty much dragged into. Today i'm tired and pissy. After school i WILL go home and i WILL sleep before i must go to that f#cking play again. Goodbye.

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-j-

I wonder if if i ive of a scent that begs for the nostrils of liars. They come my way a lot. If i like them, or ever have, they lie. Its almost amazing ( Read more... )

So i had another little run in with someone from my past last nite. I just got the internet hooked up again at my house(w00t) and i was enjoying messenging on both AIM and MSN and maybe a few other acronyms when a timid hello popped up onb my liquid crystal screen. i sed little at first. i was speaking to delilah and i didn't wanna get set up for ( Read more... )

time does not heal, time just makes you forget what it felt like a little more with each passing day. i've heard that time heals a lot. time isn't intrested in healing, just moving along with a cold indifference. time changes, time destroys, time creates, time does not heal, time simply hides it from eyesight.

i'd now like to apologize. i rant, i rave, i complain about people and things i dont understand and the things that make me sad ( Read more... )

I'm here with two of my closest friends and we're just having a good time. we're talking about anything thats urking us or just ideas we have. we can be who we are and theres no need for anything that alters our mental states at all. its been a while since i've been able to do something like this and i'm enjoying, esp. in lite of some recent events ( Read more... )