Last night I slept in Mike's room, in Mike's bed... and for some strange reason, he slept on the chair. I was afraid that what happened like 2 weeks ago the last time I slept there would have a negative effect on our relationship. Well, apparently it didin't, but I don't know why he didn't sleep next to me. Maybe he was trying to show me he was ( Read more... )

goddamn. can anything else go wrong with me? weekly dizzy/nauseous spells, sometimes to the point of vomiting (i.e. last tuesday) a root canal, right after I puked.. and I mean RIGHT after, within 10mins. The worst immune system in the world- I get sick so easily and so often. and now my tongue is infected, so I took out my tongue rings, well, two ( Read more... )

Of course you love being with me. Of course you can't keep your hands off of me. Of course you hate the attention I get from the other boys, but of course you don't want to admit it. And I think I might love it when I watch you try to catch me in a lie. I haven't lied. I love when you ask me who I've been with, and when you don't believe that there ( Read more... )

He's so stupid sometimes, so immature. Last night when I was upstairs I got a lot of attention from all of the boys-his friends. Angelo was cute... he kept commenting on everything about me... he was like, "damn.. you come up here dressed all cute, smelling so good...." One of his roomates talked to me a lot- for the first time ever...and at first ( Read more... )

Last night was so nice. Every night with him is always nice. I know he doesn't want me to fall for him, but when he's lying in my bed, telling about all of his hopes and dreams and questions and desires.... (and how he thinks kittens are the most adorable things ever!!!) he makes it almost impossible not to. He makes me so nervous sometimes. He ( Read more... )

I hate eating.. or just that I do it so fucking much.. or just that it makes me fat. and fat is ugly. so really, I hate being ugly.

Sometimes "truth" is just irrelevant. We both got what we wanted, what does it matter if the words we used to get us there were sincere?

Strange. Grease still text messages me sometimes. Actually.... no, not that strange. I heard he had an obsession with texting people. Just a little strange that he would even bother after all of that shit went down a few months ago. anyway. I was bought a really pretty skirt last night. also, tickets to the devils v. penguins game in two weeks. ( Read more... )

Actually, after certain facts were revealed to me, that process ended very abruptly. Scumbag. The end.

I'm just going to keep writing about things that don't really matter ( Read more... )