I think I'm going to start only doing things that I hate.. because I really do an awful lot of that anyway... so we'll see how this works out for me. I don't know if I could possibly be any more miserable than I am now.

There is only one boy I want to kiss. I can't believe he lets me kiss him after all of this.

Do I gotta be honest now? This boy... after all of this bull and time apart... everything... almost a year now... and all he has to do is start up a conversation again... an it's on. That's just how I am though ( Read more... )

What the freak? I have a date.

"why do good girls like bad guys knowing that bad guys tell mad lies?" I WISH I knew...

I was upset yesturday, Lupe came and took me out to dinner, then to his house to meet up with his exroomate, and we all went to a bar. It was actually a lot of fun, I was hesitant at first, but once we got there and got a couple of drinks into our systems, it got much better. This cop kept talking to me all night.. he was REALLY funny... he had a ( Read more... )

i have been awake since 7am... almost 12 hours now... and i just had something small to eat for the first time today. I spent all of last night up crying and thinking and feeling so horrible and scared. I got back to my school, fell asleep around 8-830, woke up at 1050... i was awake long enough to take my vitamins... and there was a knock at my ( Read more... )

He is gone.

Damn.......... now I have to make this decision... do I get him kicked out of school? After all of the fucking lies and shitty thing he's done to me........ after the blatant disregard for my feelings, or even my safety. After I did nothing but give in to him, give him everything he ever wanted, while getting nothing in return... this probably ( Read more... )

I didn't lose anything special or important or meaningful.... just something I was cleverly coaxed into believing was special and important and meaningful. I put myself out there, and of course I got hurt. I always say this seems to be getting old, yet I do it over and over again. The next time I lie to myself, I'm going to lie to that person also ( Read more... )