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I thought this was over.
I thought I was over you. Why are you back? I'm quite sure you're not still hung up on me after a year and a half almost. Please go away. -
Good Enough
When everyone tells you that you can't you start to believe them. Then you have this inner voice that screams it at you daily. You try to stop it, but it's like it becomes a film thats replayed and replayed. You lack motivation, you lack inspiration. You lack you. You decide that they are right. But they're wrong. You can be whatever you want to be ( Read more... ) -
i said all i had to say in letters that i threw away.
Piercing words, eyes are red
Watched your taillights in the rain
Empty heart filled with regret
I know we were both to blame
And i'm not sorry that it's over
But for the way we let it end
So I said all I had to say
In letters that I threw away
And you should know, please believe me
I've picked up the phone a thousand times
And tried to dial your number, but ( Read more... ) -
I wanna be somebody else now, I wanna think I'm not scared
You. You haunt me. You creep up when I'm not even expecting you to. I was listening to a song today, and just like that I'm back in that place I try to avoid so much. Today I'm angry. I want to be with you, before you were with her. I'm angry at myself, I'm angry at you. I'm angry at the past and the future, and the present. We deserved each other ( Read more... ) -
I'm doing okay, every now and then.
I miss you like crazy when I have these problems. It's like I blow up at one little thing. When someone makes a commitment and breaks it, it's enough to get me to tears. I'm doing okay, every now and then. What does that mean? When I was with you things were wayyy not perfect. But they were okay, with you. I miss you to tears. All the time, but ( Read more... ) -
How do I like my coffee?
That question seems a lot smaller than it really is to me at least. -
the biggest loser wins everything
I'm done. I'm done trying to please everyone. I gotta work for me now. I'm tired of hearing "you'd be so pretty". I'm tired of crying over this. I thought that I had support. All I have is money. A form of support, yes. But not the kind I need most. What do they want me to do? Really, tell me and I will try and make it happen. Do they want me to ( Read more... ) -
Afraid of being afraid
I've decided that with losing you, I lost a part of me. I know it sounds cliche, but let it. I'm afraid of most things now. I begged Justan to stay with me today because I didn't want to be home. Why? I'm not sure, but I guess it's because I'm afraid of being alone with all these thoughts. All it takes to cry over you is a simple song, a simple ( Read more... ) -
Missed Opportunities.
When does a relationship end? There are so many different relationships that one person can have throughout their life, but when do you become emotionally unattached to them and say goodbye for good? And can one person choose to change the relationship from one sort to another? Maybe one person can, but it takes two to even establish a relationship ( Read more... ) -
so tired of this.
Here I am again. I only write in here when I need someone to listen. Basically, I went to the track to walk with my mom again today. I was bitchy because I didn't feel well. She was telling me about a sport she tried in college and how fun it was and I said jokingly "that sounds right up my alley where do i sign up?" and she laughed and I said " ( Read more... )