Tonight I am very much missing my grandma.. I cant believe she's gone. It's just one of those nights, I can't sleep... Every time I remember her face, her voice, her laughter, I just break down.. I wish I could just go over to her house and hear her singing and entertaining everyone just one last time. It's tough, it's very tough tonight.. =(

What a day, what a day.. I've had the weirdest mood swings. I visited my grandma at the hospital today, she is not doing well at all. She can't talk nor can she even swallow the medication that is given to her. It makes me so sad, what makes the situation even worst is that my grandpa will NOT leave her side and just sits there next to her and ( Read more... )

I'm praying that my grandma doesn't suffer anymore. I hate seeing her like this, cancer has eaten her alive and hasn't left even an ounce of strength inside her body. We had to call ER today because she just can't bear being home anymore. She doesn't have many days left to live and it kills me inside. I never thought this day would come...

I honestly don't remember the last time I wrote a real journal entry in here. I'm starting to sleep really late at nights once again. I've been up most of the nights just in my room listening to music. Music is the most calming thing I can turn to when I'm having a stressful day, it's like my own kind of therapy. Things have definitely changed ( Read more... )

I feel so unlucky.. all my life I've felt pretty unlucky.. what is luck anyways?

I'm done. I'm so done.

A lot has happened in the past month or so.. but if I had time to write it all in here I totally would.. These past couple of months have been so hectic ( Read more... )

Sooo... I have officially made the Lambda Pi Eta (LPH) at Woodbury. Which means that I will be receiving a certificate ANDDD I will be wearing a gold tassel when I graduate!!!!! =)

I don't think I've ever been so stressed with school stuff. It's putting my mood down these days. I have SOOOO much to do by the end of the month and I just don't know where to start. I hate complaining, but that's all I can do now because I'm eagerly waiting for this semester to end!!!!! I am COUNTING down the days until the month is over ( Read more... )

It seems like forever since I last updated. If I had time, I would update everyday. There has been so much on my mind lately. Almost 95 percent of the time I just keep it inside me and try mind brushing it away slowly until it all fades away. There really is no use though, everything just builds up again when the night is almost over and when you' ( Read more... )

Some people are just plain retarded..

Good night world