i liked how that night in the truck, i was flipping through the station and we heard that song. my heart skipped whne you started singing too... i scooted closer to you and you put your arm around me... i miss you so much.

"Cause all I really want is to be with you
Feeling like I matter too"

2 days since he left. my life is falling apart.

luckily caitlin has enough glue to keep me together.

nothing i could say, would ever be able to top that..

if any of you didn't know, my boyfriend is the most amazing soul ever.

about an hour ago i took him to the airport... i held it all in the entire ride there... he checked in, we got drinks, and sat and talked for a few. before we knew it, it was time for him to go through security... i couldn't hold it in anymore. i cried so hard i couldn't breath. i still have a lump in my throat. i saw him off as far as i could go ( Read more... )

i don't want h im to go home...i am so in love with this man.
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mark is here..things are amazing. thursday i picked him up from the airport and i was seriously so fucking nervous..we then went out and got pizza with caitlin. went home and he met my parents. they absolutly love him. then friday my mom mark and i went out to breakfast, came home and slept all day. (after he let e straighten his hair with my new ( Read more... )

i managed to get off work 3 hours early. i was so tired, that i called someone in to work for me. if i can just make it throught he next three days my life will be amazing.

monday- work 1-9:30

tuesday- work 11-5

wednesday- work 10-6

thursday- work 10-3:30 then i get to PICK UP MY BOYFRIEND FROM THE AIRPORT.

these last few days have been kind of hard. i won't lie. working nonstop.. not being able to see my boyfriend or best friend is making me crazy. i'm finally at a point in my life where things are looking good. my job is really looking up.. (i got a 15cent raise), my boyfriend will be here in a matter of days.. and i have the best friends in the ( Read more... )

i feel like my heart is being ripped in 2 directions. i quit writing in this thing. i want to crawl into a hole and just be left alone. god i fucking hate this.