i do things without thinking alot.
all ic an say is i have a wonderful boyfriend whom puts up with all my rediculous shit. i love you so much mark.

i got tattooed today/yesterday. we did it all in one session. 6 hours. hot shit i'm sore. i'll put pics up later

next week cait and i head to nc, in 3 weeks cait and i head to nyc. holy shit i'm excited. i'm not stoked about the 13 hour car trip but i am stoked to see my baby play with glassjaw. anyone in nyc wanna hang out while i'm there.. i'll be staying at the howard johnson. haha i'm the shit.

five and a half hours after i lose my fucking mind i finally hear from my boyfriend. he had to work extra today. i was so upset. but i'm over it. i was going to yell at him but as soon as i heard his voice on the phone all i could do was smile. my heart was pounding. i fucking love him ( Read more... )

i miss this so much it hurts.

nothing really to update.

i am sickly obsessed with the carmen and dave show on mtv.

and i fall more in love with mark everyday. he puts up with my shit.. alot. haha

my boyfriend loves me and i need to realize that.
i need to stop acting this way.
oh my god i hate myself a lot right now.

today made me feel not so great.
it's no ones fault bu my own.

i don't know hwy i cried tonight when i called him. he was going out with his friends which isn't a big deal. i guess because i wanted to talk to him so badly. it's not like things in our relationship are going bad. they are wonderful.. i mean as wonderful as they can be when you live 7 states away. i just miss him. i feel bad because sometimes i'm ( Read more... )

OK here are a few things I've done/figured out today ( Read more... )

my parents are going out of townt his weekend. which is so nice. i needed some time away from them. i have saturday and sunday off. i think cait and i are going up to cola on sunday just for the fuck of it.

i feel much better now.. i hate pms alot.
my cat is sitting on top of the computer licking herself. hoooooooooooot shit.

the d i s t a n c e is fucking killing us. i hate to see you so sad. i wish i could wave a wand and make things better. i don't think you realize how much it hurts me to see you hurt. everything you do effects me in some way or another...

it's been nine days since i've seen your face and that's nine days too long. it kills me to wake up alone every ( Read more... )