It has been 8.5 months since Jon and I quit smoking. In that time I have cheated by having (if I remember correctly) either twice or three times the equivalent of one cigarette. I cheated more recently. (A few weeks ago) However it was very rewarding to be reminded of the fact that I still do not want to smoke. In the moment smoking was very ( Read more... )

The light of my life is gone once more
I'm glad --- he is being responsible
I'm sad --- he is gone
I'm happy --- we get to hang out later
I'm sorry --- my other light has gone out

I sit in the dark waiting..
..happy and sad..
...alone, but not.

I am currently reading Gary Zukav's "The Seat of the soul". I recommend it to everyone. It is a very informative book with what I believe to be a high level of truth. (See Power vs. Force for level of truth definition ( Read more... )

MTBI Test Results ( Read more... )

They slept on the inside of my sheets not the outside...
I love my warm bankie.

-M

I met my husband when I was 15. It was June 20th. 2 days after his 40th birthday. He was not a happy creature when I met him. He told me he was ready to die. I felt sorry for him. I fell in love with his mind. I'm am still his friend. He is a genius. No one recognizes it, but me ( Read more... )

It was hard to believe he didn't wake me upon opening my door. I am a light sleeper ( Read more... )

Feel special?

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M

To you who made comments I say thank you. Even though today is a not so great day I still have moments of happy. Looking back through the comments in my email box, I realized....my life has been morbid...my friends have been supportive....and I haven't answered them back much....after a while...I imagine no reply gets annoying....or maybe you're ( Read more... )

I really do have good friends. I want to write this so I have a record for it the next time I'm down. My friends do love me and want to help me. I am not going crazy. I'm just a little too abused. My friends do care though ( Read more... )