I can't stop crying. This is fucking rediculous ( Read more... )

So much for fucking sleeping.

It's funny how much you have to say about something that hasn't affected you yet. It's funny how I wrote this huge entry about dying young and now I'm here and I feel like I'm living every moment forever. Every time I exhale I wish it was for the last time. Every time I hit a key I wish it would be the last movement my body would ever feel. This ( Read more... )

I know that I'm cut out to be involved with music in my life because everything somehow links back together in my head ( Read more... )

What the fuck happened to you and why the fuck does everything have to change.

Everything is truly lost.

I hope you don't mind I wrote down the words "How wonderful life is when you're in the world".

Do you ever say my name?

Beneath the hatred lies a murderous desire for love.

Let's see how much more I can manage to fuck up.

Am I really worth it? I'm digging deep now. The answers I find may not surpise you, and certainly won't inspire you to rise above anything more than an adolescent broken heart. I'm digging deep, trying to find that one nerve that makes my toes tingle and my takes my breath away for a moment. And I can't. I can't find what I'm looking for and I'm ( Read more... )