well somethings in my life are now completely different. i have an 8 month old little girl in my life that i love as if she was my own. Back together with my first love. I look back on how i use to be to how i am now and it seems almost unreal. but i'm glad for the changes in my life I don't remember a happier time. I hope everyone that i know/knew ( Read more... )

So just a little update on whats new. I lost a friend I've known for a few years. Sad but necessary. He tried to make me chose between him and another friend just because he didn't like the fact that I didn't invite him to go with us to have a fire. The reason for that is my other friend that doesn't like him was going to be there and one doesn't ( Read more... )

So was at Mandy's and she has three little steps going into the house. Well as I was leaving her place I turned to walk down the stairs...... what did I do instead, miss all three steps and fall flat on my face. At least the injuries weren't to bad. I twisted my ankle, scrapped up my leg and hurt my shoulder. I really need to get more coordinated ( Read more... )

Now there's an understatement lol. You know when your past meets the now...or well something like that. Its weird how people view you one way and sometimes can't see you for who you are now. Then again sometimes they can, it all depends I guess. I've even notice that sometimes people do both...now there is something to witness lol. I've been ( Read more... )

He wondered why I didn't want to move back here. ggrrrrr. He goes to me "whats more important friends or your car" well at this point i got a little lippy and said "so your asking me whats more important people or a vehicle well then i pick people" well at that he got all pissy and i just walked away. I'm sick of the bullshit. now he wants me to ( Read more... )

Well my birthday was a blast. Didn't get to see everyone I wanted to but at least I heard from everyone ( Read more... )

The past haunts me
There is no one to tell
Is it all in my head
Was it really my fault
Did I really ask for it
I don’t remember anymore
All I know is I must not
Blame myself
And it must never happen again
No more please
I beg you
All I want to do is be left alone
In peace

why can't some people realize that some of us aren't the same as we use to be. I know I've done crappy stuff in the past. A lot of it I'm not proud of but at the same time I'm trying to learn from the stuff i did to become a better person. On the other hand when others won't realize I changed and/or keep bringing things up it makes my role even ( Read more... )

Found out today that a friend of mine died and the funeral is tomorrow. My brain feels kind of numb. I don't know any more.

Why?

Ever feel like your caught in a storm being pulled every which way. The funny thing is most times I don't mind. Its just the few times I feel as if I won't breath again. Thankfully I've found a way to make things not so bad. Its amazing how one person can affect another. Example one of my friends has a very calming effect on me most of the time. I ( Read more... )