Anyone who is a Guster fan may be able to find the link between the title and the piece.Heaviness in my hand ( Read more... )

written 7-20-04She turned up the music to cover the sound of tires buzzing on the highway. Humming along with the upbeat tune, a smile played on her lips. Surprising him after work was the best idea she’d had in the last few weeks. She was sure he would love it ( Read more... )

written 7-19-04

What is it to be happy?

*Can you define happiness to yourself in one experience? In one moment? In one word? In one person? In one look, one embrace, one kiss?

“Happiness should not come from another person. It should come from within.”

I have nothing inside of me to be happy about. What do I do then?

written 7-18-04Smiling and drying ( Read more... )

written 7-18-04Basically ( Read more... )

“The drama is over, and all I’m left with is emptiness.”
“The sooner I’m happily married, the sooner I’m happy.”
Loving you ( Read more... )

this was written to match/oppose "blue Jollyranchers". I've come full-circle in writing this, and I think it's kind of ironic-- when I was supposed to be the happiest, "head over heals" in love, I wrote about shades of blue. Now that I've resolved to end the relationship, I'm writing about yellow and contentedness. You tell me...
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The end seems a little out of place to me, but I like the bit of humor in it... not sure what to do with it!Infinitesimal sensations ( Read more... )

anger
towards this place,
gripping my neck with two firm hands.

anger
towards this depression,
sucking me deeper, never ceasing.

anger
towards those who cut,
who slice away at my self security.

apologies
to those who wound,
who scar my heart, letting me blame only myself.

anger
towards me,
for what I do to this person I try to be.

Wanna know what's going on in my life?! Read what I'm writing! The next 3 posts just give it away... *sigh*An ode ( Read more... )