work is really boring and had some things wiht my ex in my mind. So what do i decide to do... I read his live journal from start to finsh. Great to look back on all the wonderful times we've had. Sux tho cuz some of the postings had us being together forever and such. Somehow i just cant seem to shut him or out memories out of my life. People ( Read more... )

well, Anthony played me for the fool. I opened up to him, allowed a chance of a relationship and got hurt. No real shocker there tho. So, yeah a lot of guys suck! I put my feelings out there, letting him know im over andy in the sense that we'd be able to date or what, and hes like... "You just seem to cligy and you dont seem over ur ex yet... ( Read more... )

Well for whomever hasnt heard about my date on friday; here's what happened ( Read more... )

Ok so yesterday was my birthday, got a call or card from everyone except Andy. I mean thats fine I was only a part of your life for 2 years and then all of a sudden I mean nothing to him, thats just bullshit. Honestly if ur reading this you are really immature. I figured you'd at least have the guts to wish me a happy birthday but no apparently ( Read more... )

Why is it that when we lose someone letting go is the most difficult thing it the world? Of course we find ways to move on, but in a sense we're just frozen in that one moment that changed everything. Maybe your scared of losing the memories that were, or maybe you're just scared cuz you know, that the person you lost was THE PERSON. Ya know the ( Read more... )

I have to say, i dont know what it is, but im having the weirdest dreams lately. Im not sure what they're trying to tell me, but all i know is that is just weird. Maybe its memories from the past following me or soemthing. I dunno tho. Today is Friday the 13th.... dun dun DUN! Anywhos sad to think that its been a month and he still wont talk ( Read more... )

Well, lets see ( Read more... )

Why is it when you feel like things are looking up things suddenly crash and burn all hope you have. I mean I felt I was over Andy and all and so I had my friend Matt come over last nite, and well... nothing happened but in the same sense I felt so ashamed of sitting on the bed with him watching the movie, like I've cheated on andy, and even tho i ( Read more... )

Well last nite definitely could've been better. I watched House cuz they were playing reruns of it, and then I started watching the Bachelor. Then shane is like Mallory you have someone here. I was like Oh god who could it be.... BEVERLY! She dragged me out cuz she knew i've kinda kept it low for a while. We ended up at a pool hall clouded by ( Read more... )

The new year is all about change and new beginnings. Well, I've gotten the closure i needed and am moving on with my life. I've been able to go to sleep with reality i'll probably never talk or see Andy unless it's his doing, and I've accepted it all. I go to sleep without crying, and continue to pray for Andy's happiness; but thats all i can do ( Read more... )