well called Laura, she doesnt answer her phone. Called matt; he didnt answer his phone,; decided then to see if Andy would pick up and he didnt pick up the phone either. Katie wont talk to me for some reason. Andrea's back in Colorado, Brian wont talk to me, and havent talked to Lin in forever. I mean I have nobody to talk to about anything, ( Read more... )

FYI: Im also feeling better about everything. Did some talking with Andrea and Laura. Thank you both so much for being there. Saw andy quickly today wished him a happy new year. Just hope if anyone goes out tonite, please stay there. I may not be the easiest person to get along with and I may not always show I care, but you all mean something ( Read more... )

Well, 2005 had some great memories, but as it comes to a close, there were some definite bad ones. Lets take a trip down memeory lane shall we ( Read more... )

well, christmas is a time when people can be at their weakest points; lonely, depressed so forth. Well called one friend and he didnt call back so hes obviously not coming over, called Andy... he thinks im in denial about our relationship and all. Just feel that I cant even depend on a single person in this world. I feel so alone, and empty. ( Read more... )

Ok Andrea since your the only person who reads this; this is how its all goin ( Read more... )

Can anyone ever be truely happy? I mean you either running late to school or to work or somewhere. And if its not that its a fight with the boyfriend/girlfriend or your work just pisses you off to no end. Or it's the stupid gas pump doesnt pump when its 10 degrees outside. Is there really such a thing as happiness, and if there is, am I the ( Read more... )

They say the Christmas season is supposed to be one of the most exciting times of the year... you spend time with family, friends and loved ones. But is that really true. Ya know depression is actually higher around XMas I mean we buy presents for people who can be so ungrateful or treat you like crap throughout the year, and we are supposed to ( Read more... )

Reading peoples journals < one in particular> got me to thinkin.... what ever happened to that phrase Keep n' touch; or that one every girl dreads from a guy.... Lets just be friends. I definitely can relate to not having many friends at all thats for sure. The thing that hurts most is I lost 2-3 of the most valuable friends I have ever had ( Read more... )

Nothing too exciting is goin on right now. I feel like I have no friends at all, and basically am spending time with myslef because others are too busy. I really feel like I should start speaking to people I've lost touch with....; aka Sean, Brian, Matt, maybe even Elisa. At least they all seemed to understand me for the most part. Just wish I ( Read more... )

Well this week didnt really start out how I imagined it, but it did get better. I've been working extra hours at work, and am putting more time and good energy into my relationship with Andy. So, as a result of work, my review came in and I got a raise. YEAH for me. Haven't really gotten to tell anyone, so felt I should post it on my LJ, not ( Read more... )