I can't sleep so I took a bathroom break, and when I got back Zach was taking up my WHOLE BED. That's some serious sprawling! I have the biggest bed of anyone I know! So I gently scooted his leg over, which woke him up enough to start shouting something completely incoherent in a British accent. I understood one phrase: "Step one, and I shall have ( Read more... )

( It was a dark dream, darlin', it's over. )

 There’s a Paul Simon line that my mom really loves. “A tear drop consists of electrolytes and salt/ The chemistry of crying is not concerned with blame or fault.” And she said that line was so interesting to her that she started reading about the “chemistry of crying.” She remarked today that she thinks the reason I bounce back from things so ( Read more... )

 Today was great. It was just the greatest ( Read more... )

I've been missing TM so much, and I felt better for two whole days, so I thought, "Hey, maybe we can try to hang out sometime soon ( Read more... )

I am listening to classical music and drinking unsweetened tea today. Every time I want a cigarette, I go make a cup of tea. I also went to a dance class, but accidentally forgot about yoga. I fixed my bike (which was literally falling apart as I rode it, it was scary) and now I am listening to Beethoven and writing poetry. I feel fucking ( Read more... )

hard breakup + period - stable hormones = the worst body image problems I think I've ever had. I hate this week. I hate this week.

I am reading a book called The Time Traveler's Wife because it's sad, and about love and time, and I've read it before and think I'm going to feel better once I finish it.

Anyways, this evening while I was reading, one of the protagonists had six miscarriages. I, on the other hand, am so tired I'm practically drunk. I had to work today, and while my ( Read more... )

It's chilly outside tonight, and I feel as lonely as I'll ever feel. I've been waiting all year for it to be cold again, so I could open my french doors to the morning and curl up around the warm body of my best friend in the world. We're just a few weeks too late, and now I'll be all alone, and I don't give a shit about wonderful crisp mornings ( Read more... )

TM and I broke up tonight. I feel like I'm going fucking crazy. What do you do when you break up with your best friend? I've done it before, but I don't remember what to do. I hate sleeping by myself in this huge fucking bed with no one to spoon to sleep. No one's belly to hold. No one's solid weight beside me. Gordy is an asshole and never lets me ( Read more... )