it's summer in the city. i miss the beach. the beach here has giant waves, which i feel childishly afraid of... & last night dru showed us pictures of two shark heads that she found washed up on the shore of the very same beach. on the train yesterday, this little girl was sliding up & down the pole... i found myself wondering if dirty old men ( Read more... )

nov 21st 2010 ( Read more... )

i haven't written in a long time. it's because i have nothing & everything to say. i have been waiting for this moment to have the computer in privacy for days, because i don't have a typewriter, to get something out, but i've been sitting here staring ( Read more... )

& if you ain't runnin with it run from it mothafucka, aright

Every minute deals a new blow, from one temple to the other with love, hate, anything else.Returned to my island, the one I ran from in fear of suffocating isolation only to find myself voluntarily drowning at the peak, leack

i can't decide if i should make an entry or not ( Read more... )

year year year year year year year year year year year

polluted with suicide & self absorption. if only thought or feeling were an option. the low beam leap & the forgotten birthday blow out. the baby forsaken like the fish in the dirty bowl & the dog at the side of the road.

wearing your clothes head down to toes, a reaction to you

just rolled worst cigarette ever. i woke up today to roommate cleaning house & regretted not writing a note that said "don't do the dishes or clean, am going to do it," because i felt too guilty to get up. i briefly got up this morning & tidied a bit in the living room & managed to misplace my cigarettes. i was half asleep so they could be in the ( Read more... )

in the past 2 days i've filled 10 garbage bags full of clothes i'll never wear. i've also cleaned parts of the house a bit. i've also been working on those days. i'm just tired. i don't want a roommate. i felt obligated to say yes & every time i think about it, i feel that my freedom is just getting that much more limited. i know that maybe he won' ( Read more... )