really? really, california? you can't buy into the fact that at some point in the future we may decide to recognize gays as equals and so wanted to make it harder then to get anything accomplished in the arena of rights? yes, marriage may not be a right but the privileging of one group over another in terms of access to political rights is most ( Read more... )

I didn't know I was "gay" until my second quarter (it was winter) in high school when this bumbling old priest who had been assigned to teach us Sex Ed--oddly placed in the curriculum between Buddhism and Nihilism--confronted chapter 7 of our Sex Ed handbook, Becoming a Man(ironically echoing the title of the modern, gay novelist, Paul Montte) ( Read more... )

maybe?

at teh second job just waiting for the time to pass. i have done mucho homework and so am just watcing as the rain comes and then goes. it is so weird how every fifteen-20 mins we get torential showers then sun. its odd. i got offered a volunteer position at my highschool to teach, bt i have a job out here that i am super excited to apply for. i ( Read more... )

or maybe its valentine's day coming up. or maybe its the crossroads i find myself standing at. or, again, maybe its the rain on the day i dont have my umbrella. or the stress on my day off; the need to do things and fill time when, in fact, i would really rather not do anything. and then there is that. yes, that, again. but that has developed, ( Read more... )

i was talking to a certain nanny i know and we got around to the idea that the youngones she takes care of now will eventually be all grown up and will have questions about the world that will be awkward for their parents to talk to them about, but will need to be answered and of course big gay me got us onto the idea of gays and this is what the ( Read more... )

sitting in the living room of the appartment i am soon to vacate; listening to the dishwasher clean, the water is being sloshed slipshoosh around. my hands are tired from a day of paperwork, fileing, typing, writing, last second applications keeping me from going home early; keepingme from feeling like i could do anything. today dawning bright with ( Read more... )

"and so like boats we are borne back ceaselessly into the past"
"yes" i would say "isn't it pretty to think so?"

well, folks, that is it. the race has been run. the finished line crossed. the application has been turned in to the ominous sounding Marshall Committee and i await their summons to appear before them to be awarded my money...errr...well, we will see. nothing to be done. at least not on that front. now i have to write soooo many essays and busy ( Read more... )

what if ( Read more... )