it's one of those days today ( Read more... )

i hope wednesday turns out good... maybe it will take away the doubts i have about staying in toronto. 
can a job really fulfill everything i'm looking for?
... doubtful.

right now, my heart is breaking.
and i don't know why.

never mind, i lied... i think it's just too many reasons why.

i hate being ruled by emotions.

i don't like feeling too much.  at times i don't feel justified to be feeling a certain way.  and it's crazy to share because really, it doesn't make sense.  seriously, how can a person's heart break when ( Read more... )

i got another call from Mr. JERK-OFF himself !... again!... haven't heard from him since Nov.  Looks like he's still holding on to my #.  this time i hung up once he said, "lemme give you a hint, i'm jerking off right now..."

here's my 1st entry bout him...

... next couple of weeks will have a large impact on my life. decisions, decisions, decisions. and i hope i'm not kidding myself.

... after all this time, he's still on my mind. very often. he still occupies most of my thoughts in most of my days.

THAT'S IT!  (LOL!  i haven't written in so long and that's all i have to say for myself?!)

... YAY!  progress!

booooooooooooooo.... i guess i'm really not out there afterall.  haha, damn!  i kinda suck at this... too many angles to think of!

I'm "out there"! 
Oh boy...

I'm perplexed and I'm thinking too much about a particular person... a particular situation.

At times being in a relationship can be difficult.  Sharing your life with someone else isn't always gonna be perfect.  There's another person you need to take into consideration.  Therefore, personally I think being single is easier than being with someone ( Read more... )

I'm 30 years old now... as of 3 days ago.  Apparently, I'm "part of the club" now.  I dunno... that's what alot of my birthday greetings said.  Haha.  Let's all be honest... 30 is kinda getting up there.  Yes, it may be the new 20's, but in the end... we really are in our 30's.

Anyway, this year for my birthday I didn't plan a cele as we (m&m -
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