i was going to delete this but i dont know how so i'll just no longer write in it.

ok. i have to take a break from this xanga/livejournal thing. i will give a weekly update maybe. actually. no. its over. i am deletint this tonite. so read while u have the chance...

today has bin a pretty good day. i went to get my hair done with claire in seaside. looks pretty cool. um...hung out with yaa,kimi, and jessie. how fun. no really, it was a pretty cool time. im going to go now cuz im cold. peace

i ges that im not really depressed anymore. i am not that happy, but at least im not depressed. i have cramps and a headache like no fucking other. i am getting my hair done tomorrow. thank you lord!!! i have to go to class so i have to go.

i hate history too. and i hate my mom

i hate my mom and my life

so i just got bitched at by my teacher and this is basically how it goes.

"melissa, you're stupid"

"o really, well hey im sorry."

then i left. i have never been this depressed. then, brandon has ( Read more... )

i have absolutely never felt this way before. i am seriously going crazy. i mean, i noe that sometimes i say that and i'll be joking but i am so serious rite now. i hate being alive. it sux so fuckin much. i cant stand anyone. whether they are family, friends, or teachers. i dont noe when this began to happen. i used to be so happy and now i am so ( Read more... )

i have been sitting here and i was just thinking about all of the shit that my mom did to me. she fucked my life up in so many ways. i remember when i was only 6 years old, and i had a dream that she was going to leave me all by myself. and i told her. and i went back to bed, but i over heard her teling someone that she was going to leave me. and i ( Read more... )

i have just officially realized that i hate my life to the fullest. i have been so depressed lately its not even funny. like no joke. i hate that feelng. i feel like my life is purposless. theres no point. im not helping anyone in any way. just, no im not. im not helping myself either. so what does this mean? what am i going to do about it? im ( Read more... )