i have a "school girl" crush and i don't know if i like all that much. in fact i'm sure i don't bu i cant help it!

i miss livejournal mysace is of the devil but like many evil things they are so addictive. i miss the days of jsut typing about your feelins and not worry about a persons top 8 or wh y you were deleted from someones myspace. you think to yourself did i do something wrong did i upset them? you never put into play that its just a website and who ( Read more... )

i'm done i want to run run far away and nevewr look back i just want to disappear and never be hear from again. i should have listened to myself 2 yrs ago and just bolted and never returned.

i'm at work i'm going to see if i can get out early becasue i would rather be with my family then a place that i hate with every fiber of my being.

how is it there are some poeple that you see that just steal your breathe away? why is it that even when you are prepared for it you realize later you may never be ready. how can one person make you so weak that you have to sit or you'll collapse? i really hate myself right now. damn i was doing so well. i hate having to be strong when in fact i'm ( Read more... )

ireally don't know what i'm going to do. i can one go to new york where not only will i be happy but women that i love will be up there my sisters amber lee , the wonderful maria e. talor. or i could go up to alaska and have an amazing time probably not be happy but i have an adventure in the process in the mild misery. but how worth it would it be ( Read more... )

so i'm at my friend joels place and everybody is playing poker and it hilarous watching them they crack me up. the best part is joels tv is also his computer. it rocks. alright i must go oh and i'm in pretty high spirts and'm loving the feeling of feeling good. oh yeah and i quite smoking i haven't had a cig in like 2 days damn i hope i can quite ( Read more... )

fuck it all

have you ever wanted to write to someone? or im someone anything call someone even, but as soon as you start you realize you have nothing to say. not even nothing to say but nothing that would help or push on to a new subject. i feel this way all the time. that is why for the most part i'm glad i get peoples voice mail. i'm glad becasue i have ( Read more... )

this actually happened ( Read more... )