firstly thank you two 2 main people angie and woody, as you both showed you are true friends and stopped me doing something stupid. had a very long chat with angie and relised that i can deal with everything one piece at a time ( Read more... )

who am i? i no longer know. i sat and had a good look at my self last night and i was scared by what i saw, long gone is the nice carl who helps hes friends enjoys his life and has fun all the time, now there is just moo, mood swings, violent tendices, depression. Last night i tried to kill my self if anyone is actually intrested went home and ( Read more... )

right anyone who reads this journal who knows me i need your help. my friend angie came up with this idea (cheers hun) what 1 song would remind you of me? i wanna put them on a cd

angie- goo goo dolls- name

Fed up!!! just had one of those days where there is just no feeling, a day when im in the mood to be just left alone. had a long conversation with si today, he seems to be really enjoying spain and its way of life. i need to get out there. then i can decide to stay or come back........ whatever ( Read more... )

my friend si moved to spain earlyer this year and is alway on about me going out to see him which i really would like to do. Hes also offered me a place to stay so i could look for a new job and life in spain.

Well ive passed my final exam which has brought a smile to my face, now i can get a fatter pay check and i can leave my job to find another one! problem is now ive said i want to leave im scared to! what if i cant find anywhere else ( Read more... )

It was my 21st birthday on the 15th of april (old age creeping up) so me and my friend woody decided to get away for a bit, so we went to his caravan in wales . It was like i was in a completly different world ! there was no motorway noise, no one ringing me up every five minutes complaining or asking me for a favour and no work!!! i actually slept ( Read more... )

woohoo 4 day weekend, so i get some time to catch up on my sleep and sort some stuff out that needs doing. boring stuff really like roll the arches on my car. also need to have a word with the women who puts my horse out in the mornings, turns out she has been seen beating ten bells out of it!!! im not impressed ( Read more... )

went to see my physio on monday because of a car acciedent before xmas. But it was a different women. She looked at my back and pushed 2 things back into place with a big crack! fuck me it hurt!!!! turns out i have ligament damage in my back and i need 2 strenghten it by swiming :( , now i think ive pulled my back again because i went to get in my ( Read more... )

not posted on here for a looooooooooooong time. mainly bacause ive had a lot on my plate ( Read more... )