So, a year later I'm posting. I'm 21 now, I have complete control of my alcohol intake. I haven't done anything embarrassing in a while. I've got a great boyfriend who I really love, I'm mentally healthy and now understand how to control myself ( Read more... )

Apparently, I have a lot of problems... I'm going to a psychologist now and it's pretty amazing how ready I am to change. After dropping an entire summer session of classes, I feel like life is ready to work out and that my anxieties will finally melt away. It's nice to know you're not crazy, or that you are and it's fixable. It's also nice to know ( Read more... )

I'm finally twenty and I love it. I feel like there's nothing better than being out of the teens, besides facing the reality that I'll be old soon and facing my death in the blink of an eye. I really want to do some things before I go, and I think maybe I can list them there, and cross them off as I go ( Read more... )

At this point, I feel like it's completely fine for me to update every day if I want, because I don't feel that I have anyone to comment on my things by courtesy or contract; it's nice. I feel at ease when I'm writing the thoughts that randomly come through my mind and lately I've had a lot of them. Sadly, the majority that I write down are about ( Read more... )

What's funny is that I don't like my posts as much as I like my titles.

After looking at the way I treat men, like a man per say, I completely understand why I have no real understanding of the caring and vulnerable side of men. I may be just as inconsiderate with women as well, but I realize that when it all is said and done, I know what I want, and that's what I'm doing.

So... I just finished reading The Notebook by Nicholas Sparks, and definitely got really teary-eyed. More than anything, it made me want to never get Alzheimer's. The love story part of it was important too, but in reality, I'm just hoping I can tell all of my hookups of late that it's over, and that I'm not going to be with any of them again. I ( Read more... )

So I was looking into my archives of what I'd written kind of lately and I wanted to update my number lol

9 haha. So much for that journal entry back in November or whenever.

My life lately has been kind of awesome, that is if you don't mind people looking at you like this a lot O.O ( Read more... )

I love college.
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I'm pretty sure that I never update with anything of real consequence, just a frivolous explosion of emotion and words.
I like it. It works for me. What else would livejournal be used for in my case?
Meanwhile, I'm totally in love with research, and that's probably what I'll do for the rest of my life. (lol right)