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Well, the pain has settled to middling. Tolerable, but enough to make me irritable. Which means it's still not controlled well. And it spread more, it's now up the top of my head.

Will this ever end?

Last night I was dreaming that I got a puffy package (the padded yellow evelopes) from my pain clinic doctors. Their names were on it, their names were on the items inside. One was a...now that I think of it, one of those giant-sized altoid tins FILLED with pain meds. Then there were these packs of red pills, capsules, not like sudafed, that I ( Read more... )

The pain, is awful. If I didn't have brain medications, I'd probably off myself. But, a very good conversation with someone who is becoming someone close to me really helped a LOT. So, that helped take my mind off it. We'll see how long I can last like this. I just cannot believe the amount of flareup I have had. It has been YEARS since this ( Read more... )

Well, that was short lived. For a brief time, all the pain went away totally. And now it's back. And ramping up. I have new drugs, but so far nothing is working again. And I had burning in my ankle, which I keep telling myself is psychosomatic. It has to be. I don't know how I'll face life if this insideous disease is all over my body. I ( Read more... )

Well, I went to the shrink with crouchback and was shrunk. And more properly medicated. I think I'll count my daily pills just to see how many I take (damn neurontin wonky dosaging). I'm feeling better, pain is about a 6 on the 1-10 scale, which for me is pretty darn bearable. We'll see how things commence. One very good thing happened today, and that ( Read more... )

Well, I'm feeling a smidgeon better. I ignored the pain for a while and washed the iguana. About thirteen new scars for me (and this was after I dremeled half her nails. I couldn't get the other half, she was getting pissy). And boy, did she fight the bath (it's been a long long time since she had one). She was shedding, so I soaped her down ( Read more... )

I think I'm going to get my right ear pierced twice more tonight. Cart piercings. It's difficult to explain, but pain I can control helps me deal with the pain I can't control. And the piercings are not really painful at all for me. That will up the total to 11 in my ears. Lately, odd numbers have been fascinating to me. All my life I had ( Read more... )

I'm terrified. I don't know when I'll get in to see the doctor. My ears keep on burning as well as the back of my neck and there is nothing I can do about it ( Read more... )

For those who are concerned, my RSD has spread. It made a really vicious attack, keeping me up and in tears. It spread by about 2-3 inches. It was at the base of my neck, and now it's up to my ears and includes my ears. I'm terrified that it will spread to my face. My scalp, I probably can manage. My face? Not being able to touch it at all ( Read more... )