I hurt.
I hurt a lot.
I hurt so much I almost wanna die.

I've lost 23 pounds. I now weigh less than someone I love dearly. This means a lot to me. Today I stupidly didn't eat before working out and when I got home I was all shaky and sweaty and just gah. But I ate something so I feel better now. I love a good workout.

(my diet journal has disappeared and I have no idea how to start another one).

The way things have been going, I haven't been able to use my xmas gift from crouchback for riding lessons. I so can't wait for the wedding to be over so I can take advantage of the lessons. Someone stole my helmet (damnit) and I need to get a new one, which is why I'm not taking the lessons. I HATE the helmets that the stable has. I can't wait to jump ( Read more... )

Stupid question of the day, for the women and fashion conscious men out there ( Read more... )

You know what worries me? The social security cut crap that is going on. It's no secret that I'm on SSDI. Given the fucking nerve damage I have, I can't do a job that doesn't have significant downtime. For me, going to grad school is ideal. You have your bursts of research, then you sit your ass down and write. Teaching is minimal as a TA, ( Read more... )

Note: I am perfectly OK.
I had a fantastic day.
I am not high as a kite.
I am happy.

T-minus 27 days till the wedding. NOTHING IS DONE. I shall be a mess. Not even a third of the people have sent their RSVPs. I have the need to do something, but here I sit, eating my fried eggs on toast, spanish rice, oranges, brownies, and yes, whoppers. I mean, hell, I've lost 23 pounds in 2 months. Eating like this. Mostly because, well, I ( Read more... )

I keep on putting my pants on backwards. I wonder if this is telling me something.

The doggie turns 3 tomorrow. If all goes well, he'll be showing saturday. He needs 2 points for his championship. God, I hope he gets it. if not, there's sunday. Wish us luck. It would be so awesome to have that.

How do I keep my panty line from showing through? The dress is an a-line, not exagerrated, and with regular underpants my waistline for the underpants will show. I know I can wear a thong to avoid leg lines ( Read more... )