It seems like I have no time to cry, or am just too exahsted to do so. I try to be happy all day in the faces of those who see me, but as soon as I'm away from them I can be what I feel, which is bitchy and sad. I dont think I can cry in front of my mom, beause I know she cries too, and I cant take that. This hurts her almost as much as it hurts me ( Read more... )

At least I didn't feel sick today. And I didn't cry at school. And my tears didn't well up. But I'm not at school anymore. Someone told me that I'm a good mom because I'm doing whats best for the baby, and I cried. I guess I'm a mom in a sense, but I wont be for long. As soon as it's in the other womans arm's she'll be a mom, and I'll just be me. ( Read more... )

It's just one of those days where you'd give anything to go back to a simpler time.

Another fucked up day at this rotting hell hole. I think we should re-name it that just to be sure that no other teens get stuck going here. I'm fine through first and seccond period, but third I have English Honors and I get completely overwhelmed. She keeps talking about all these things we are going to do and how we are doing out big research ( Read more... )

1st period: Jewelery, my teacher is psychotic, but cool....I guess. Assuming I can tolerate the insanity. Thank god there are no books or materials really, just a folder. Yeah for simplicity ( Read more... )

The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Seventh Level of Hell!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:
LevelScorePurgatory (Repenting Believers)Very LowLevel 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)Very LowLevel 2 (Lustful)Very HighLevel 3 (Gluttonous)Very HighLevel 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)HighLevel 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)Very High ( Read more... )

Yeah I realized I typed wrong in that last one, it is 11 weeks now (not months, duh) so its about 3 months. I pretty much had to make a decision in the last week. I could either have an abortion or move out and back in with my mom for the school year. Well, I'm here at my moms house, looking for someone to adopt the baby. Sometimes I really just ( Read more... )

I went to the doctor yesterday and found out that I'm 10 and a half months pregnant. Dad knows, my brothers know, but aren't supposed to know, but my mom, thank god doesn't know yet. I'm not quite sure what I'm going to do yet. My dad wants me to make a decision by next tuesday whether or not I'm going to keep it, kill it or give it up for adoption ( Read more... )

Man i been feelin like shit lately. I still haven't had my period, cant breathe real well, even though I quit smoking, can't stand up or I black out and fall over, can't eat much, but get hungry alot. It really sucks. I have a doctors appointment, but I dont go until next tuesday. I'm really worried about myself, I don't have any idea whats wrong, ( Read more... )

Stil no period. Still no friends, no life, no job. Dad found out my period is late. Now I have to go to the Gyno. The preg tests keep saying neggative, so I'm either really sick, or really sick. Great selection there. My dad pretty much told me if I'm preg that he's going to send me away to a home for preg girls and dissown me. Woo-hoo.