My mother wants me to make a public apology for the last 5 years.

And that everything I said about her was a lie...

Everything I said was out anger...

Anything that I mentioned wasn't the whole story, I only brought up the part to make my mom look bad.

She "did not" call me a whore.

-Samantha's mom

So, I’ve made about a million calls this morning.

They haven’t done my results; I have to try back on Monday…

I’m going to Athens this weekend to keep my mind off of this.  My mom called me a “whore” because I was going down there to party and have sex.  Basically… Homecoming is one big party and orgy… Didn’t you know?  It’s not like I’m a ( Read more... )

So, I find out today I believe…

In a sick way, I hope I have lead-poisoning…

I am going to call in 10 minutes…

I need luck… all the luck in the world.

Because if it’s not lead poisoning, then we start back at square one… I don’t have the patience of the time to start over again.

It’s hard to believe, but I WANT to go back to school… I WANT to ( Read more... )

So, I should find out today…

Basically, I called this morning and they don’t have the results yet… but I’m going to try again at 3:00 when the results should be posted according to the nurse on the phone.

The only thing is… I’m sure that the metal they used was stainless steel (according to Jeff’s gorgeous best friend Amanda… who worked there for a ( Read more... )

So… we don’t know anything yet… if there is anything wrong they’ll call today.  If it is ok, mom will find out tomorrow.

Today I am chilling, I just finished the second Harry Potter book…. That’s it.

The people are coming and redoing the carpeting downstairs.

Then I’m going to the soccer game tonight… that’s exciting.

Then, if I don’t go to Athens ( Read more... )

I want to know now…

What has kept me from doing what I love?  If it is lead-poisoning… if so I will be SO pissed… like, sue them for every dime they own.  I can’t play, I missed school, I missed marching.

Then if all comes back fine… I’m no where…

I think I’ll know tomorrow…

So, a new lead…

Lead-poisoning.  I got my belly button pierced July 9th; the symptoms appeared 1.5 months after that on August 18.

Whether the piercing has lead… I don’t know.  Jeff talked with his friend who used to work at the piercing place, and she said she believes all the piercings came from U.S.A.  If it came from China, there could be a ( Read more... )

To be honest, being home is more stressful than anything else…

My mom is, quite bluntly, too strict.  I will never be good enough, but she switches it to make me look like the bitch.  I’m 19 years old and I want to go to Homecoming this weekend and visit my friends… she said “no” at first… I’m 19 years old.

Basically I have more stress put on me ( Read more... )

Not exactly the answer I wanted…

“she is perfectly healthy”

If I am “perfectly healthy”, why can’t I balance, walk, write, play my horn, type accurately…

I’m so mad.

Tomorrow we are waking up at 5:00AM and leaving at 5:30AM.

Then I am having the MRI of my head and back….

Then a doctor’s appointment.

I’m excited… maybe we’ll get somewhere… maybe I’ll be back in the winter…