Basically, since writing is out of the question… I think I’ll be typing two entries a day.  I usually write once on Livejournal and once in my regular journal.

I can’t go to counseling anymore… I wanted to, and I email her do weekly sessions and I was going to go through group therapy at the same time.  I didn’t think I would ever need this as ( Read more... )

So, I am bored already.

It majorly stinks that I can’t practice… and it hurts my back to sit up, so it’s difficult to read.

Most people would be ecstatic that they can stay home, watch movies, and eat for the next 16 weeks… I want to go to school, I want to practice, and I want to play piano… watching TV gets old to me…

I want this to be over.

I ( Read more... )

Basically, I’m home for the next 16 weeks.

I’m frustrated, no one knows how frustrating it is to try, and fail.  Not because you didn’t practiced.  I practiced every day.  But because you physically can’t do it… no matter how hard you try, you can’t play anymore.

I went home because I wasn’t doing anything there.  I was tired all the time and it ( Read more... )

I'm going home, for good.  No second chances, nothing.  I've finally given up and ready to surrender.

I've dropped all my classes... and I need to get ahold of someone to withdraw from the university.

Hopefully, I'm fixed before winter quarter starts.

I'm going to miss it here, no struggling through classes... but the atmosphere....

Also... there is ( Read more... )

Not being able to play is killing me…

Not being able to walk a straight line is getting old.

I want to be fixed… I want to play.  I worked so hard… it’s not fair.

I want to relax but I have so much to do…

I have a few worksheets to do for music theory, then I have to practice some melodies for the quiz on Monday, then I have a dictation worksheet, and then I finish notes for psychology…

Oh, and then I have to add classes because I can’t take any performance classes… so I need to replace those…

Oh yeah, and ( Read more... )

It was probably one of the hardest things I've ever had to do... to tell myself "I can't do it ( Read more... )

They support you, they love you unconditionally, and they are always there.

A happy mom and dad.  When the parents are truly in love, everything else will follow.

I’m going to the doctor today… fun fun…

I will find out if I need to go have surgery…

I don’t even care what it takes, I’ve missed marching this year because of it, I can’t practice… I just want this to go away…