ahhh, just had a purge. i feel heaps better now. i had forgotten how easy it is for me to throw up! yay ( Read more... )

i am a fat fuck. but, anorexia is starting to take its hold again. my mood has slipped too. coming down, and theres nothing i can do about it.

*sigh*

Okay, so mum decided we would have a roast for dinner *ick* so, i managed to deal with that. i havent had a roast for ages, and we used canola oil with the heart tick, and im vegetarian, so no meat. sweet ( Read more... )

Pushing the door open, Amanda slinked into the girls' bathroom. It had been a hard day; a hard week; an even worse year. She stood there, slouched in front of the dusty mirror, and stared at the face looking back at her. But, it wasn't Amanda's face that returned the gaze. Amanda was beautiful, with long curly blonde hair, and dashing crystal blue ( Read more... )

*GIVING IN ( Read more... )

if i fail at being a good anorexic, i have failed at life. it is a life i crave, yet one i hate all the same. my mind is getting better. i still get very disordered thoughts. but then, im not convinced that these ever go away. whats the point in eating if you still get the incessant voices and thoughts? i may as well not eat and atleast feel like i ( Read more... )

*waves ( Read more... )