i know how stupid this must sound coming from me and all.....but i think that i can honestly say that i am happy with the things that i have tht i can call mine right now.....i am truly content with the way things have been going (( with the obvious exception )).....and hopefully i will be getting off of this bullshit by friday so i can go and do ( Read more... )

countdown-------> 10 days to go

today was probably one of the most boring days i've ever had in my life.....i got woken up at 9:30 in the damn morning so i could go see my cousin play with his band (( he's 11 and so adorable )) which i was happy to do for him because he's the only member of my family that is really close by and actually really ( Read more... )

it seems as though i have been lied to....again....i expect this of course seeing as how no one has ever found me important enough to tell the truth to.....but damn i thought i actually had some kind of value after all the shit i've dealt with....i guess i was wrong.....again.....i feel so incredibly awkward and wrong.....i don't really see a point ( Read more... )

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today has started out bad....and gotten worse....i did get my English Lit. paper turned in without penalty for being late....the paper sucks because i got tired of dealing with it last night and didn't really do everything....but it's better than nothign so yea....i'm still probably going to fail....i am not going to summer school either....NO WAY ( Read more... )

today is turning out to be not so good.....but for some reason i am not bothered by it that much.....i slept really well the other night and actualy didn't wake up tossing and turning....which is a shocking thing considering i usually wake up freezing in the middle of the night.....but i was kept quite warm =)

thursday was a disaster....but it all ( Read more... )

i am sitting here and thought i would find something to occupy my time while i wait.......

( BLUE!!!!! )

yea i know that nobody wants to hear it but damn it....being a female blows big time....stupid female anatomy.....i am at school which is no better and i have to go home today to help out.....not by choice but hey if i can get some money out of it i am all for it.....i am hopefully getting a job soon and will be moving out with luck.....i have been ( Read more... )

it seems that just when things can't get any worse they do.....but for once there was someone there to pull me out of it.....and amazingly enough......i actually allowed myself to be open and that alone was strange to me....but it actually did help a lot....and despite the fact that i was falling into a bit of a really bad mood....i managed to ( Read more... )

i got home tonight around 9 i suppose and i had to go run a few errands before i could finally sit down.....so i got all my running around done and came back to my mom's to try and figure some things out that have been bothering me all day.....to save everyone a lot of trouble, everything is color-coded and under cuts for your protection.....thank ( Read more... )