well. another one of the most intimate persons to my life is moving away. that makes damn near most every one I've developed a deep relationship with in lawrence ( Read more... )

I hereby change bahgeera's birthday to my own +/- a few months, that way I can remember. And I will always have somebody to celebrate with. so, Happy being 7 bahgeera. I got you Iam's "natural" this time and maybe will forever more. It really does have more meat and less grain in it.

I'm going to be 25 years old tomorrow and ( Read more... )

so there is this rash of violent crime that is pretty overwhelming for me right now. about 3 weeks or a month ago this guy 3 blocks down was murdered while being robbed and resisting. Two nights ago, on the same block, an older guy was robbed at gunpoint and pistol whipped and now has staples in his head. also three days ago, a friend of a friend ( Read more... )

i'm not going to be a dad. *exhale ( Read more... )

no bones and... still no place to live. my muscles are tight and mind- distracted. I fear being homeless and feel mad at having to live in a way I don't want to live... but... that's a feeling not new to me and moreover, old as oppression and lived by countless lives. 

The fireflies luminous seduction is finally underway here. Wet weather still, the plants like it ( Read more... )

It has been 6 years since I was 18 ( Read more... )

well, it happened again, finally. I got fired for reasons that are ambiguous and not as quite explicit as they sound. i take the real reasons to be that i didn't kiss enough ass, and that i wasn't chipper or cute enough to customers when i wasn't feeling cute or chipper. boss's usually say i have an attitude problem. Well I have very real and well ( Read more... )

so difficult. i lament, can time truly heal all wounds? i am, up to and as for now, uncertain.