...relationships of ownership, they whisper in the wings ( Read more... )

i am starved for physical contact.
if you know me and feel comfortable and are willing, i could use a long hug.
i am going through a hard part of my life and am not okay, and don't expect to be soon. if you feel like you could listen, or just be in the same room with me and not have to talk, i need intimacy, that is, to know and be known, very much

so i had this time in portland and was awed by the blatant simplicity of connection and shared affection that i experienced between myself and people i came to know, and love to the extent that i knew them. And it has been really fucking hard to reconcile that with the over complex way that people normally interact with all the boundaries and ( Read more... )

kind of down and out today. i need time to think. lawrence was too ready for me, swooping me up in my relationships and familiar faces and places. i need to be somewhere new in my mind. i need a clean slate and a week to be a hermit ( Read more... )

So as an answer to the implicit question of... is Portland really all that? I would have to say, that the state of things is that, it could be, meaning: when here i am reminded of and inspired by all the creative possibilities my life could develop into and lightness of spirit i can encourage and enjoy, not that this can be true here and only here ( Read more... )

for a circle pit.

i have attempted two movies in the past 36 hours as an excuse to rest my body and take my mind off of... well, everything... but they have both put me in this real fucked up, what if i were in an alfred hitchcock film and the only one left in this town type vibe. i didnt finish either ( Read more... )

two years ago i made it a huge fricken deal but didnt tell anyone it was my birthday. some folks still tell me it was the best party they ever went to ( Read more... )

its an awesome board game, but as of yet we haven't been able to rustle up the folks.

and my thoughts are not being that great of company...