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motemeal

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Jul 07, 2007 02:41

I always know that when I really have something to say, LJ is here and that's more than a bit of a relief to be honest.

Long, meandering and musing post ahead... youve been warned!
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ramseschaos July 7 2007, 11:38:56 UTC

It's good to see you posting again. I hate that you've been in such pain. Your job is arduous, that's for sure, and I can understand where the repetitive motion has made for an excruciatingly intense soreness.

motemeal July 8 2007, 04:38:47 UTC

Thanks, Ramses :) Generally it's much more varied than this and not as tedious, but the end of summer everything here is a tinderbox and everyone is rushing last minute (after the grass stops growing) to get it done NOW.

I seem to be healed up well, but I'm hesitant to jump right back into the same old same old considering, but its that or starve right now. and while I can afford to drop a few lbs, I dont need to so bad I cant afford to pay my bills or buy gasoline.

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motemeal July 8 2007, 04:52:18 UTC

Thanks smallred!

And kudos to you for going for it, you know? I'm betting everyone that has gotten to know you a bit since you guys uprooted and did a life 180 is glad that you did. I sure am ;)

anonymous July 7 2007, 17:20:19 UTC

Well I am glad to see you back on the net Mote. I fully understand the dilema you are in. I am in the same place in my love life. I never figured it out completely...women that is...lol!
I know women want a guy who is stable, has a good job and above all good insurance on the monetary side. Finding something you like to do is difficult sometimes.
I was suppose to be a writer/journalist long ago...a "Bob Woodward" for the conservatives...lol! But reality settled in...so I went into business. But even when I was a financial wunderkind...there was also the issue of trust. That trust has been broken many times.
However...you are still very young...I know you may not think so...but looking at myself in my fifties...you are a pup.
You are still young enought to go to school or learn a new vocation. I know you need to do something creative and you need to find someone the same way. I know you apparantly like to do for others even though you are a hermit...lol! Find something to uplift your fellow man that you can make a living

motemeal July 8 2007, 04:57:50 UTC

I never figured it out completely...women that is...lol!
I dont even think Johnny Carson figured that one out- even with the Swami hat! I'm not sure thats something that CAN be figured out- but then again- how boring would life be if it was something we could figure out? :)
You are still young enought to go to school or learn a new vocation. Oh I know- but there are certain points in life when you just see the path so clearly and obviously you think you have to be an idiot if you dont at least try waking down it. I can go years between coming to those moments in life and I dont want to wait any more. There's more urgency to it now than there has been before.

Thanks, oh anoymousrex!

coraljune July 9 2007, 18:14:24 UTC

Good to see you posting, Mote. I miss you on my flist.
I hear you about the unmotivatedness. I'm skirting on the edge of unreliable myself.
Lots of questions, a paucity of answers. Maybe it's the asking at all that's important.

motemeal July 10 2007, 20:07:32 UTC

Could very well be, Coraljune. Thanks for the welcomes, by the way! *Waves*

I think I'd be fairly screwed though if I got this way in a 9 to 5 type. I hope you can hold it together long enough to find at least one answer or two. Or at least some motivation :) Best wishes for ya, Coraljune!

coraljune July 10 2007, 20:08:45 UTC

Thanks, hon. That's important to hear :)

motemeal July 10 2007, 23:45:22 UTC

Yay! :)

positive reinforcement. dreamofthesong July 10 2007, 16:55:24 UTC

I've found that there's a time in life where everyone realizes that something has to change. My dad didn't have me until he was 38. I was the first child. By the time I got old enough to do things, he was still game- only because I was the first one, I think. My brother, born after dad was into his 40s, kinda got shorted on that front. It just wasn't that new exciting adventure anymore. So, I usually ended up doing all those cool things with my brother. Dad worked all the time, came home exhausted, and us as kids never wanted to ask him to exert himself further for our entertainment. I don't blame my dad.

Another note, I have a friend right now who is turning 50 next February and she's just now going back to nursing school. I knew this woman a while ago who decided when she was 80 that she wanted to be a lawyer, so she went and did it.
You can do it.

My brother said something yesterday: "I didn't know relationships would be so hard." Good luck!

Re: positive reinforcement. motemeal July 10 2007, 20:05:19 UTC

Heyas Dream :)

Yeah, my mom is in school and she's in her 60's. Not full-time, but still.

When we were all younger I did things with my sisters and it filled a need, but it filled a different kind of need I think. It's kind of apples and oranges.Of course, when I was 10, one sister was 15 and the other was turning 13, so naturally those fun-filled days were drawing to a close :D When my oldest sister had a car, I didnt see her again for like half a decade ;) Then my other sister was all "Im not gonna be like Christine- when I get a car me and you will go places together!" then she got a car and I didnt see her again for half a decade ;)

Ah siblings :)

Re: positive reinforcement. dreamofthesong July 11 2007, 01:21:40 UTC

Now... I didn't torture my little brother, but I think he can complain of the same eventuality. As soon as I got a car, he didn't see me for ever.