i am not sure how to unveil my thought process without lifting something that for now, desires stillness. stillness. it's what we miss most when life swirls about. you are in and out and i love that about you. please never stop being that constancy in my life, that "story with no end ( Read more... )

fools leave too soon
built to fill roles and fall
standing alone again
distant and dissatisfied

these four years
and how we say goodbye
to these four years

it's a long goodbye
with mixed emotions
just fragments of another life

well i'm not dead yet
but the regrets are killing me

i'm afraid i'll lose in the end.

and i'm terribly aware of how much i deserve that.

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i have so much to do and i feel helpless to do it. 46 student narratives left to write, tests to grade, tests to write, and an overall need to not move or use my brain ( Read more... )

like most things, it's not grammatically correct ( Read more... )

why is it that you cannot tell me what you actually think?
why am i falling for this?
i miss you but you are everything that ruins my everything.  you say i settle.  i say i wish you knew what i have.
i say why weren't you were the reason for it.

2/3/02

and sometimes I wonder if it will

be possible to feel again - and

if this possibility will make me

stronger in the end.

because I can’t tell if I’m awake

or alive and if this is a dream,

please don’t wake me.

I’m supposed to feel this

and be here and hold myself steady.

and I’m already starting to feel

strengthened - such an awkward

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