for some reason, a memory i had forgotten just came into my head. my family had been invited to a giant barbeque outside of austin, maybe thirty minutes to and hour out. the property was very large, with a horse area, a dining area, a marsh, and of course, a giant guest/barbeque area. i remember catching bullfrogs in the marsh by the horses, and it ( Read more... )

i'm getting a job very soon. right now i feel guilty for not having one. priveleged white male is depressing.

i am a pathological liar. not in the cute way that you may have seen in some movie. i mean garden-state. you saw it in that movie, and it was adorable, while somewhat depressing. i know who i am. I am not what i say. i do know who i am though. most of you do not. in order to know me you have to overlook what i say, because a decent amount of it is ( Read more... )

shits lame. i guess i don't hate people enough, at least thats what you think. if only you knew.

fuck your love.

so i'm reading "she comes first" by Ian Kerner, and its fucking amazing. this shit is redefining the way that i think about sex. alot of the stuff in it is really amazing. and i don't mean sleazy sex manual shit. seriously. you should read this book. do it.

i would very much like to be good enough one of these days.

DELETED CUS that shit is lame

and now there is nothing to do. my phone is dead, so i can't call the people i want to talk to and i'm relying on the internet. bullshit. hopefully theres a party at bryan g's tomorrow, because that woud trump my new years plans so far. and yeah. i'm bummed. not so much bummed as dissapointed.

i have no idea how any of this is going to turn out. it could either end up well, or my life could go back to being entirely disappointing.

i have a job, working at ciao bella, and its alright, but really stressfull sometimes. or most of the time.

secrets are irritating.